[Poem] Maybe it’s Because

Maybe it’s because I’m autistic

That I don’t understand why we don’t talk

About all those things that make people go Shush

Maybe it’s because I think different

That it makes even less sense

That little girls don’t know what’s wrong with them

Because of the grown men

Maybe it’s because I don’t know the rules change

That I think I’ll get the memo

That blue is the new pink and green, the new yellow

Why can’t I ask and who can’t I love?

Why must I smile? And why must I shrug?

Maybe it’s because I’m scared

And it’s the fear of being wrong

Everyone’s confused

Why didn’t you tell me you felt this strong?

Maybe it’s because no one is standard

But we keep pretending that there is a a norm

Maybe we’ll make the perfect human because science could’ve won

Maybe it’s because I like to watch the sky past

That I forget myself and hope

That maybe the good times will last

I’m a little girl with little girl dreams

Annoyed because goals and resilience are so much different than the movies seem

Maybe it’s because I have PCOS, maybe it’s because I’m stressed

And maybe

Just maybe

It’s because men always cared about all the wrong things when they see a dress.